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Lost

Where am i? Where is this so called "home"? Where is my place? I think it was with you But you're gone What now? Where do i belong? Is there still such a thing as "my place"? Or is it nowhere to be found? Have i lost my way? Or will it take me back to you? I'm lost

What if...

What if our relationship is not the problem? What if our stage difference is not the problem? She is certainly not the problem. Am i the problem? I don't like myself. How can i even feel capable of loving someone else, when i don't even love myself? I neglect myself; most lf the time i don't sleep good or enough, i skip foods on purpose and without a reason, most of the days i only drink a cup or two of water, i don't excercise, sometimes i gain weight like crazy and do nothing about it, i spend my money like crazy and without thinking, i can't stand myself half of the times. I am the problem I can't properly lover her and give her a healthy relationship when i don't even have a healthy relationship with myself. I can't give her my all, when my all is just in my head all day thinking about how stupid i am, how bad my life is and how much i dislike myself.